Tired?

Why do you complain, Jacob? Why do you say, Israel, “My way is hidden from the LORD; my cause is disregarded by my God”? Do you not know? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

Isaiah 40:27-31

Reflection of the heart



As water reflects a face, so a man’s heart reflects the man.

Proverbs 27:19

I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh. (Ezekiel 36:26)

I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. (Ephesians 3:16,17a)

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come! (2 Corinthians 5:17)

You show that you are a letter from Christ, the result of our ministry, written not with ink but with the Spirit of the living God, not on tablets of stone but on tablets of human hearts. (2 Corinthians 3:3)

And we, who with unveiled faces all reflect the Lord’s glory, are being transformed into his likeness with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit. (2 Corinthians 3:18)

Link to video "beautiful" Francesca Battistelli

Passion or apathy

“Wake up, O sleeper, rise from the dead, and Christ will shine on you.” Ephesians 5:14b

Apathy: Absence or suppression of passion, emotion, or excitement, lack of interest or concern, emotionless, without feelings, complacency, indifferent, to ignore, disinterested, anesthetized, too lazy, too busy, self-indulgent, a subconscious blocking of distressing information.

The world is still sleeping its “sleep of death”. It has been a slumber of many generations; sometimes deeper, sometimes lighter, yet still a slumber like that of the tomb, as if destined to continue till the last trumpet sound; and then there shall be no more sleep. Yet God has not left it to sleep unwarned. He has spoken in a voice that might reach the dullest ears and quicken the coldest heart. Then thousand times has He thus spoken and still He speaks. But the world refuses to hear. Its myriads slumber on, as if this sleep of death were the very blessedness of its being.
- Historical collections of accounts of revival, 1845 -

O God, you are my God,
earnestly I seek you;
my soul thirsts for you,
my body longs for you,
in a dry and weary land
where there is no water.
Psalm 63:1

link to song burning ones




Brainerd’s Diary and Journal reveal an ardent and oft reiterated yearning to “burn out” for his Lord and to be “aflame for God”. “It is my fervent longing” he said, “to be a flame of fire, continually glowing in the divine service, till my latest, my dying moment.”
-Heroes of faith on pioneer trails-

I refuse to sleep one more minute. I’m awake… with eyes opened, heart rendered, and knees bent while I whisper “Yes…Yes, Lord! then I raise my hands as I move my feet: “I’m available for service. Send me. I’ll go. I want to stay awake forever…” 
-Anne Graham Lotz-

Closed doors

About one and a half year ago I read the story below. It made a big impact on me and is one of many things that influenced me towards wanting to work with streetchildren.

Maybe I can help open some doors even if this means I have to step outside the gate myself…

Some people have every door open to them, thousands of doors wide open for the choosing, their future molded by whatever path they decide for themselves. Other people knock and pound on a thousand doors, waiting and hoping that any door will open so they may have at least one option, rather than being stuck helpless forever in the hallway. Others, having given up, make a home in the hallway. The difference between these people often falls as a difference between the poor and the rich.

I, for one, have been given many of the things I have ever wanted or needed. Any educational opportunity, expensive or cheap, was there to take as soon as I chose it. I am sheltered by a comfortable house with my own room. I never suffered a day of hunger, never had to skip even a meal. I have a family who has stayed together- a mother, a father, and one younger brother. I am well provided for, monetarily. My world is full of wide open doors. For the vast majority of each of you, your lives are similar – you have option, opportunity – there are doors open for you. Some of us, of course, have more doors open than others, but for many in the United States, the clear fact is that our hallways are open futures compared to the vast majority of the world, who live with much less than we have.

One day in Lima, I stood at the gate of my house, ready, with my key, to enter. A child approached me selling candy. “Comprame…no sea mala” “Buy from me, don’t be mean.” He said to me. I barely looked at him and said, “I don’t have any money.” The truth was, I had a lot of money in my pocket. Then, I shoved the key in the gate, opened it wide enough so that just I could pass, and slammed it shut behind me. I ran up to the door to my house and fumbled with the next key to enter that door. As I did so, I looked behind me to see if the child was still there. He stood staring at me through the gate, still, open-mouthed, holding his box of candies, his face a little bit startled – probably because I had slammed the gate so loudly and forcefully behind me. I opened the door to my house, went inside, and shut the little face outside. I shut out a little boy who was probably hungry, who needed that money before he could go home – I knew that many of those children would have to work into the night if they didn’t earn an established amount of money, and many times they returned home and were beaten for not having worked as hard as they should have. I had lied to him. I went up the stairs to my room and put down my things. I sat on my bed for a few moments, not able to forget his face. Why didn’t I give anything to him? I jumped from my place and ran downstairs, out of the house door. I unlocked the gate and looked right and left. In my hand I had coins to give to him. But he had already left. Until this day, I will never forget his face looking at me through the barred gate that separated me from him. It was the gate that said, “I have a key and you do not. This place is open to me and not to you. I have money that I don’t have to give to you unless I want to. Stay on your side of the gate.”

- Noting but a Thief by Danielle Speakman -

Link to video: "God of Justice by Tim Hughes"

Peace from within

 

I while ago I read the passage below. I loved the difference it shows between being empty inside and seeking rest through other things or being filled with a peace that comes from within.

"The next day I went to the ocean where I often had my quiet time. Since I had been a young girl, this had been my favorite spot. I climbed down part of a cliff, over a sixty-foot drop, to a little alcove that had been carved out of the side of the mountain by the winds. As far as I knew, no one else in the world knew about this spot, so it was mine alone. It was a haven, protecting me from the winds of life. I would spend hours there watching the waves crash in, one after another. That day I wrote in my journal:

I used to come here as a child to escape the tensions at home. Feeling completely empty inside, I would sit and let all the peace I felt from the warm sun and ocean mist engulf every part of me. It was the only peace I knew. Now I sit here at age nineteen, loving the warmth of the sun and the mist from the ocean, but today I can say with thanksgiving, my peace comes from within. I am everything but empty. I am full to the brim and overflowing.

God has given me hope when I used to despair. God has filled my heart with love when I used to hate. God has filled my heart with forgiveness when I used to be bitter. God has filled my heart with purpose when I had no direction. God has filled my heart with compassion when I never used to care. God has filled my heart with giving when I used to have nothing to give. God has opened my eyes spiritually when I used to be blind."
-Totally surrounded by Christina Di Stefano Davis-

Link to song Matthew West "the healing has begun"

Chains

They have forsaken me, the spring of living water, and have dug their own cisterns, broken cisterns that cannot hold water.

Come, all you who are thirsty, come to the waters; and you who have no money, come, buy and eat! Come, buy wine and milk without money and without cost. Why spend money on what is not bread, and your labor on what does not satisfy? Listen, listen to me, and eat what is good, and your soul will delight in the richest of fare. Give ear and come to me; hear me, that your soul may live

For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Jeremiah 2:13, Isaiah 55:1-3, Romans 6:23

Link to video drama

fight with leafs

We had a great retreat with our church this weekend. When we went for a walk with some friends we had a fight with leafs. In the pictures you can see who started it…sorry Naomi…

Which way to go...

If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.
James 1:5


I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with my loving eye on you.
Psalm 32: 8

Walk by Faith

Remember how the LORD your God led you all the way in the wilderness these forty years, to humble and test you in order to know what was in your heart, whether or not you would keep his commands. Deuteronomy 8: 2-3

In a desert land he found him, in a barren and howling waste. He shielded him and cared for him; he guarded him as the apple of his eye, like an eagle that stirs up its nest and hovers over its young, that spreads its wings to catch them and carries them aloft. The LORD alone led him.
Deuteronomy 32:10-12

The LORD will guide you always; he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land and will strengthen your frame. You will be like a well-watered garden, like a spring whose waters never fail.
Isaiah 58:11

This song has been very helpfull to me in some periods of my life...sometimes the road is easy and sunny without clouds, but sometimes it's a broken road and you only have faith to hold on to...
When I looked this song up on you tube I found a the powerfull testimony that goes along with the song. You can find it with the following link: Testimony Jeremy Camp "walk by faith"

Song "walk by faith"

Which voice to listen to...

These two pictures have helped me to learn to distinguish God's voice from other voices.

The first voice is a voice that draws us away from God. It is an angry voice that accuses us. It shouts in our ears and it makes us feel worthless and hopeless. It keeps reminding us of our weaknesses and it keeps pointing out our sins. It tells us that our sins are like stains, that we have to try to wash away, but we never can, no matter how hard we try. It is a voice that covers us with shame and makes us shrink back to a cold and dark place.

The second voice is drawing us towards God. It is loving and strong. It is a voice of hope. It uncovers our weaknesses, but does so in a gentle way, bringing us to our knees. It helps us to look at ourselves in full light, through the lens of grace. It is a calm but passionate voice. It helps us to see that we are of value and that we are missed. It grows in us a desire to change and to show God our love for him. It makes us long for holiness. It is a voice that wants to free us, cleanse us, heal us, restore us and give us purpose.

The more we understand God’s love for us, the more we can understand how we hurt him by turning away from him and the more we are able to believe that He will recieve us with joy when we come back.

So, which voice do we trust?
And which voice will we be to others?
Link to video East to West




Then he showed me Joshua the high priest standing before the angel of the LORD, and Satan standing at his right side to accuse him. The LORD said to Satan, “The LORD rebuke you, Satan! The LORD, who has chosen Jerusalem, rebuke you! Is not this man a burning stick snatched from the fire?” Now Joshua was dressed in filthy clothes as he stood before the angel. 4 The angel said to those who were standing before him, “Take off his filthy clothes.” Then he said to Joshua, “See, I have taken away your sin, and I will put fine garments on you.” Zechariah 3:1-3

For the accuser of our brothers and sisters, who accuses them before our God day and night, has been hurled down. They triumphed over him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony Revelation 12:10,11a

Therefore, since we have a great high priest who has ascended into heaven, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess. For we do not have a high priest who is unable to empathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet he did not sin. Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need. Hebrews 4:14-16

Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you. Ephesians 4:32

More about forgiveness: When you feel you really messed up

What was frozen through is newly purposed...



For everything there is a season, and a time for every purpose under heaven
Ecclesiastes 3:1

Link to video "four seasons"



Spring

When man proceeds to the accomplishment of some mighty enterprise, he puts forth prodigious efforts, as if by the sound of his axes and hammers he would proclaim his own fancied might, and bear down opposing obstacles. He cannot work without sweat and dust, and noise. When God would do a marvellous work, such as may amaze all heaven and earth, he commands silence all around, sends forth the still small voice, and then sets some feeble instrument to work, and straightway it is done! Man toils and pants, and after all effects but little: the Creator, in the silent majesty of power, noiseless yet resistless, achieves by a word the infinite wonders of omnipotence! In order to loose the bands of winter, and bring in the verdure of the pleasant spring, he does not send forth his angels to hew in pieces the thickened ice, or to strip off from the mountain’s side the gathered snows, or to plant anew over the face of the bleak earth, flowers fresh from his creating hand. No. He breathes from his lips a mild warmth into the frozen air; and forthwith, in stillness, but in irresistible power, the work proceeds; the ice is shivered, the snows dissolve, the rivers resume their flow, the earth awakes as out of sleep, the hills and the valleys put on their freshening verdure, the fragrance of earth takes wing and fills the air, till a new world of beauty rises in silence amid the dissolution of the old! Such is God’s method of working, both in the natural and the spiritual world - silent, simple, majestic, and resistless!
- John Gilles, Historical collections of accounts of revival, 1845-

link to video four seasons

He covers the sky with clouds; he supplies the earth with rain and makes grass grow on the hills.
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He sends his command to the earth; his word runs swiftly. He spreads the snow like wool and scatters the frost like ashes. He hurls down his hail like pebbles. Who can withstand his icy blast? He sends his word and melts them; he stirs up his breezes, and the waters flow.
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Praise the LORD from the earth, you great sea creatures and all ocean depths, lightning and hail, snow and clouds, stormy winds that do his bidding, you mountains and all hills, fruit trees and all cedars, wild animals and all cattle, small creatures and flying birds, kings of the earth and all nations, you princes and all rulers on earth, young men and women, old men and children.

Let them praise the name of the LORD, for his name alone is exalted; his splendor is above the earth and the heavens.

Psalm 147: 8;15-18
Psalm 148: 7-13

"Do you love me?"

Peter asked, “Lord, why can’t I follow you now? I will lay down my life for you.” John 13:37 

Peter was very enthusiastic about wanting to follow Jesus everywhere, but when the time was there and he got the opportunity to show Jesus that He was really sincere, that He loved him and that he would stand by him in every situation, no matter how difficult, he backed out… It’s interesting to see the comparison with this story and the story of Peter walking on water. 

…Jesus told them, “This very night you will all fall away on account of me, for it is written: “‘I will strike the shepherd, and the sheep of the flock will be scattered.’ But after I have risen, I will go ahead of you into Galilee.”

Peter replied, “Even if all fall away on account of you, I never will.”

“Truly I tell you,” Jesus answered, “this very night, before the rooster crows, you will disown me three times.”

But Peter declared, “Even if I have to die with you, I will never disown you.”
Matthew 26:31-35

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Then seizing him, they led him away and took him into the house of the high priest. Peter followed at a distance. And when some there had kindled a fire in the middle of the courtyard and had sat down together, Peter sat down with them. A servant girl saw him seated there in the firelight. She looked closely at him and said, “This man was with him.”

But he denied it. “Woman, I don’t know him,” he said.

A little later someone else saw him and said, “You also are one of them.”

“Man, I am not!” Peter replied.

About an hour later another asserted, “Certainly this fellow was with him, for he is a Galilean.”

Peter replied, “Man, I don’t know what you’re talking about!”

Just as he was speaking, the rooster crowed. The Lord turned and looked straight at Peter. Then Peter remembered the word the Lord had spoken to him: “Before the rooster crows today, you will disown me three times.” And he went outside and wept bitterly.
Luke 22: 54-61

I wonder how it must have felt for Peter to look into Jesus eyes after having denied him three times, knowing the promises he had made to Jesus in the past. No wonder that he went outside and wept bitterly.

I wonder what he saw in Jesus eyes. I don’t think it was judgement, because Jesus already knew this would happen and he hadn’t judged him before. Jesus already knew the weakness in Peter’s heart long before Peter was aware of it.

Could it be sadness and maybe the question Jesus would ask Peter later: “Do you love me?” Maybe it was not a coincidence that Jesus asks Peter three times: “Do you love me?”

When they had finished eating, Jesus said to Simon Peter, “Simon son of John, do you love me more than these?”

“Yes, Lord,” he said, “you know that I love you.”

Jesus said, “Feed my lambs.” Again Jesus said, “Simon son of John, do you love me?”

He answered, “Yes, Lord, you know that I love you.”

Jesus said, “Take care of my sheep.” The third time he said to him, “Simon son of John, do you love me?”

Peter was hurt because Jesus asked him the third time, “Do you love me?” He said, “Lord, you know all things; you know that I love you.”
John 21:15-17

I think this is also a question we can ask ourselves. Do I love Jesus? Do I love him enough to not deny him? What would I do when I was in Peter’s situation? What am I doing now in my everyday life and in my conversations with others?

Faith maybe is not so much about a set of statements we can agree or disagree on but more about loving Jesus.

Why then are we ashamed to talk about him and the sacrifice He made for us. Why hurt him by denying him, pretending that He is not that important and that the sacrifice He gave his life for doesn’t really matter? Do we care? Do we love him?

Can we say with honesty like Peter: “You know all things, you know I love you”?

Luckily Jesus knows our heart, and when we sink He will reach out his hand to us and by his grace He will pull us up again.

The following classic song from Don Fransisco tells the story after Jesus died from Peter’s viewpoint...
Link: Song "He's alive"

Disturbing noices

When I wake up in the middle of the night because I hear footsteps going up and down my ceiling and other disturbing noices, then I will just think of this picture and hopefully I will feel a little better.

Streetchildren

When I was a teenager I read a book that made a great impact on me and that I read many times after. The title is “Ik zal nooit meer huilen” (English version: Run baby run by Nicky Cruz). It is about a guy who as a child decides he will never cry again. He joins a streetgang and his heart becomes very hardened but when God reveals his love to him his life is changed forever.

Something in this story got a hold on me. I think it was the idea that no matter how far away somebody can be from God, no matter how hardened somebody’s heart has become and how hopeless the situation, God can reach anybody. His love is always bigger.

This book and many other things have grown in me a longing to be involved with streetchildren. My dream would be being part of setting up something to help these children/teenagers. I wouldn’t know how, where, when and with whom, and I don’t know if I would be at all suitable to do something like that, but I can’t let go of the thought.

Sometimes I think this is just a crazy idealistic idea, but I want to be open for God to guide me if this is his will for me. To explore this further I want to go to Bolivia in January next year for at least 4 months to work with a project for streetchildren from YWAM. I wrote about the project in my post on José, who is one of the streetchildren.

A friend of mine lives in Bolivia right now and is involved with the with the work they are doing. In the video from “Nederland Helpt” you can see more about the project and the work she’s doing:

Link to: video streetchildren Bolivia




I hope that doing this project will help me see how my ideals will hold in the harsh reality of working with streetchildren. I am a bit nervous about it, because I’m not really such an adventerous person. I like comfort and safety…so we will see how this adventure will affect me….

To be continued…